Fearless!!!!

Man!!!

Let me tell u guys something.....FEAR is a silent killer!! It will kill your hopes, dreams, plans, your overall energy...EVERYTHING!

I have been letting fear rule my life for WAY too long!
What am I afraid of you ask? Just fear in general...fear of the unknown, fear of being broke, rejection(various forms), wasting time/money,fear that my products/inventory wont sell....fear, fear, fear...Ugh...
Some times, fear is ruling and I don't even know it. It's like I conditioned myself to act and think a certain way!
Past experiences can definitely have a long lasting affect on your life....IF YOU ALLOW THEM TO.

Unfortunately fear has had a dramatic affect on my business and personal lives. I wouldn't do certain things, go certain places, create certain things, collaborate on certain projects, or attend events...just because I was AFRAID . This has happened over the course of a few years.

People have been encouraging me and pushing me to be greater for years. You know its great when people see things in you and for you that you don't see yourself?! I am forever grateful for that. But as someone told me, You have to be in a place to receive what God has for you. SO true! I wasn't readyyyyy (Kevin Hart voice)

BUT....At some point I had to tell myself, "GOD has this under control!". Like there is nothing in this world that ANYONE can prevent or take from me. They don't have that power...because anything that is meant for me, will be. Point blank.  Regardless of who I collab with, what event I go to, what products I make or don't...what is meant for Crysy will be! I can't talk faith and not practice it! No way! How will I ever prosper that way? How can I be afraid to be GREAT?

I have been on a quest for a closer relationship with God and I can't proceed if I don't trust him fully.

I recently had the pleasure of going on a Spring break trip to Destin, FL. Totally relaxing and great trip. Anyway, a friend suggested jet skiing.....Uh....jet skiing? Who me?? Was what I was thinking. Going jet skiing is the furthest thing from my mind. Seriously! All these things went thru my mind: "What if I flip over"...."Fall off"....all kinds of things. Just scared for no reason. Fear of the unknown, because I had no idea of what would happen!

BUT GOD....he spoke to me...
And it hit me....GO! Get your ass on that jet ski! For all the things that have held you back...for all the moves you didn't make and things you were scared to do! F^&* Fear!! (excuse my French). So I went. When he speaks, YOU MOVE.
To say that it was the most exhilarating experience would be an understatement!

I literally rode that thing yelling, "F&*% Fear" as loud as I could!

I was alone, in the huge body of water not knowing what would happen next....Just me and GOD...I prayed...I sang(Tasha Cobbs "Fill Me Up" and "Break Every Chain")...I talked to GOD. I have never felt more at peace, to be honest.

As I revved that jet ski up to 7mph...(don't laugh! It seemed to be going pretty fast!) I have never felt more sure about myself ...EVER.

Like all the things that people have been telling me for years finally registered in my OWN mind.

I GOT THIS! Finally!

I felt that I needed this experience. I had to go. Like I couldn't wait for another moment of declaration. This was it. I'm so glad I went though, it was over due!

One night at bible study at The Lighthouse Church, Pastor Keion Henderson made a point that basically said that you can be all over social media posting quotes and scriptures when YOU really need the encouragement. Ya'll know I love a good quote and scripture! But I was more so posting it for myself! I needed the encouragement! Sure I wanted to share, but how can I preach if I need the word??? This day, I had to really encourage myself and trust in God for the outcome. Not to say that I've never trusted in God before....that is a must! There have been plenty of times where I have trusted in God for the outcome of a situation and everything worked out.🙌 But to give something to God and have no control of the process or the outcome.... To not have a backup plan... To be in the unknown with no worries...that was a first! I had no idea what would happen when I got on that jet skii. I just knew God had his hand on me and all would be well. And it was. Because I had no fear.
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Before jet skiing

See, I came back in one piece!

Off she goes!